It's been awhile…

It's been awhile…

Well we now into our second month of 2009 and I haven't updated in awhile.

Carter is doing really well in school. They evaluate the kids on their reading ability and at the beginning of kindergarten they are to be around a 0 and by the end of kindergarten they are to be at a 3 and that will have them ready for 1st grade. Well Carter is already at a three and we are just a little past half way through the year. I myself had to have help when I was in grade school so I am VERY proud of him! His report cards have all been very good too.

Last week I finally started getting child support again. I hadn't received any since October 6th. The amount I got last week was the original amount that the judge order, but since he is delinquent by over $2000 he owes me an extra $17 each week until he gets his all his back child support paid off. I have called and am getting the amended withholding order sent to his employer so that I start getting back support too.

Dave is still doing the over the road truck driving and he says he loves it. He still is trying to get me back and says I was his true love and he loves me…. Well it's a little to late now to finally be realizing that. I will always love that man, but don't worry I will never ever take him back.

Michael, Carter and I went to St. Louis for the weekend. We stayed at a hotel for 2 nights and took Carter to the Magic House and to the City Museum. Although Carter says his favorite part was swimming at the hotel. ;-) Besides having a great time and getting away my goal on the trip was to see if spending that much time with Michael would get me those 'I can't live without you' feelings. We have been dating for 6 months and although he is an amazing man to both Carter and myself I just didn't have those kind of feelings for him yet. Well the trip was great, but I still didn't get that great connection or those amazing feelings. My feelings for him are a loving caring kind of friendship feelings instead of a lover type feelings. He new going to St. Louis what my feelings were and what I wanted to try and get out of the trip. I have been nothing but honest with him from the start. So on the way home he asked me if I was still confused and what my feelings were. So I was completely honest with him and told him that he wasn't the one for me. I told him there was nothing he did wrong and that he is a great guy and that I didn't want to hold him back anymore. I hated to have to do it, but know it was the right thing to do. ;-(