NEW UPDATE!!!! (sorry it's been so long)

First let me say for those that do still read this…. I am sorry that it has been so long since I have given an update.

Lets see… where to start.

Well the last time I updated I was still seeing Michael. Back in the beginning of September we mutually agreed that things just weren’t progressing and that it just wasn’t a good time for us to be trying to date again. I told him I do care for him, but that I just don’t have time right now to devote to a relationship. My main priority is Carter and myself. So between Carter’s sports activities and me working 2 jobs to try and make ends meet I just don’t have time to date anyone right now. Now I have gone on two dates since Michael and I called it quits. However, I told them both before we even went on the dates that I really wasn’t looking to date right now as I just don’t have the time to devote to a relationship. They understood, but still wanted to go out.

Carter is finishing up football right now. He had his last scheduled game already, but his team has a bowl game this coming Saturday. He keeps wavering back and forth on whether or not he wants to play football again next year. I am signing him up next for basketball that starts next month. He has never played before so we will have to wait and see if he likes it. His favorite sport by far is baseball!!!!!

Carter seems to be doing really well in 1st grade this year. It is amazing to hear him read to me. I LOVE it! My baby is growing up though… way to fast. I have his parent teacher conference this coming Friday so I will hopefully find out more on how he is doing in class then.

Can you believe Carter is going to be 7 years old in less then a month…. Oh my goodness where have the past 7 years gone???

I was the good parent last night and actually took Carter to Jacksonville to see his father. Carter hasn’t seen his father since Father’s Day when once again I was the one who drove to Jacksonville so he could see him. On Father’s Day he saw him for a total of about 5 minutes tops. Sad part is Carter didn’t really even want to go… I had to make him go. Last night we were at his house and we sat there for about 15-20 minutes maybe. Dave has 2 cats and both Carter and I are allergic to them. Dave has moved his girlfriend in with him… or I guess I should say fiancée. Yes I guess they are engaged even though he isn’t divorced from his last fling that he married. I really don’t approve of his new girlfriend at all. She has recently been arrested for doing drugs. I don’t care if it is only pot she is doing…. It is illegal. Dave caught her one time doing drugs and he broke up with her. (which surprised me) Supposedly she went to rehab and isn’t doing drugs anymore now. So he took her back. However it will be a cold day in hell before I ever allow Carter to go over there for any kind of overnight visit. Fist of all she smokes cigarettes which Carter is allergic to the smoke, and they have 2 cats which Carter is allergic to. Then there is the fact of the illegal drug problem…. I’m sorry maybe she has kicked the habit, but I have my doubts.

Today is kind of a sad day for me. Nine years ago today I married the man I was so madly in love with. I wanted to start a family with him and to live happily ever after. I really thought it would last forever. Dave and I got married October 7, 2000… As I sit here thinking about how happy I was then I start to tear up a bit. I miss that life… I miss being married, I miss being a complete family. Why did he have to take that from Carter and I??? I know he has said many times that he would take us back now. But then again that would be another cold day in hell for me to put Carter and I through that again. Dave is the one who repeatedly cheated and wasn’t happy in the marriage. I forgave him and took him back to many times…. I will never do that again. Carter and I are surviving just fine without him.

Oh I almost forgot about Carter’s hospital stay. Back in August during the Illinois State Fair Carter had an asthma attack and ended up going to the ER by ambulance and had to stay in the hospital for 3 days. We didn’t even know he had asthma so it was a really scary experience for us. Carter is now on a bunch of meds and doing so much better.

Well that is about all I can think of for right now.