Hello!!!

Well I am sorry it has been about a month since my last update. I know of I think 2 people who do read this blog. So here is your update on Carter, Me and my divorce.

Carter is doing alot better. He finally stopped pooping his pants. Thank goodness!!! It was getting very frustrating.

I am doing really well... I never thought I would get here or get to this place this fast. I still have bad days... and bad dreams. But, they are fewer and farther apart! I could even tell you the last time I cried over this situation. ;-)

Well Dave has gone from living in Taylorville, to living at Lisa's, to staying at a hotel, to know he has an apt in Springfield. He quit his job at Sutton's and him and Lisa were going to be over the road truck drivers for Schneider. Well that didn't work out. Dave finally realized Lisa was a crazy *&%$# and he left her and got what he could out of her house. He had to call the police cause she was acting crazy. I did help him get a hotel and allowed for Carter to stay with him there. Dave stayed at the hotel for about a week and then found an apt in Spfld. He got a job being a manager at Long John Silver, he has his own store in Decatur. He is still working part time at Sutton's... but hasn't gotten called for any hours yet.

It is so nice that Dave is seeing his children again. He has gotten Michael a few times, Tabitha doesn't want to come. He sees Carter quite a bit now!! I think that may have helped with our pooping in our pants situation.

Dave says that he has realized that he messed up... He says he now realizes how good he had it. He says he is going to win me back. He keeps asking me when I will move back in with him. I have told him that I have not gotten the trust back.... and not sure if I ever will. I told him that I am not saying that maybe sometime down the road... maybe years... maybe never... that I may be able to forgive him and get that trust back. But, right now I don't and can't. I will always love him, and always care very deeply about him, but I can not trust him with my heart again. He has broken my heart and my trust more then once and I don't think I will ever mend that trust or my broken heart. He betrayed me... he lied to me... over and over again.

We do talk everyday now and I hope and pray that he doesn't go back to Lisa. I know he will find someone and I hope he does, but I just pray it isn't Lisa.... she isn't good for him or for our son.

Oh... I almost forgot. Dave did talk to Lisa about a week or two ago to see if he could get the rest of his stuff. She said she burned it all. Nice huh.

Well that is about it...

Thank you for reading and please keep in touch.

Michelle