Being honest...

Being honest isn't always easy, but it is ALWAYS the best thing to do.

As you can tell from my last post I feel a little stuck in my relationship. He is perfect in a lot of ways, but still there is just something missing. He has even thought so too.

I have to be true to myself and I have to be honest with him. I wish I knew what was the right thing to do. I hope and pray that I don't do the wrong thing. I need God to help guide me.

I have told him that I don't want him to ever think I am hiding anything from him or being dishonest in anyway. I don't want to hurt him or mislead him in anyway either. So I have told him that there is someone else I am talking to... we have never met before. However, I started talking to him back in early 2008 when Dave and I first separated. We have recently been in contact with each other again and are continuing the friendship. We have considered actually meeting sometime for dinner.

Some people may say there is no need to tell him unless it goes past just being friends. Well I feel that I need to always be honest. Maybe that is a fault of mine. Maybe I shouldn't have told him. I don't know... I am new to all of this. I just know that if the roles were reversed I would want to know. He knows that I am am confused about "us"... I do care for him very much. I just don't know if he is "the one" or not.

So maybe I have ruined what we had, but I am just being true to myself. I want to find that complete bridge that will take me to the other side to happiness.

Why is dating so hard... I thought it was supposed to be fun and enjoyable.

What to do???

I feel like I am trying to cross a big ravine on a bridge made out of wood planks. I am half way to safety on the other side, but I can't go all the way because the rest of the wood planks are missing. I am stuck....

Do I give up and go back and start all over??

Do I stay put where I am at and sacrifice my happiness??

I am afraid if I stay and wait the bridge will eventually collapse around me and I won't be able to get out.

UGH....